感激伤害你的人，因为他磨练了你的心志:D

Saturday, March 29, 2008 { 7:57 PM }

okok . hahahaa . i SHALL UPDATE OKAY :D

hmm . well went through the 3days Adam khoo's i'm gifted so are you workshop . spending 13 hours butt down for 3 days . is tiring . seriously , i almost slept at times . not that it is boring , just tat i am tired .

Well , the workshop was great ! why ? is cos we dun have to study for 3DAYS . but well , thats not the ultimate reason , is just part of it . for more information on wat we learn , i shall refer you ShuFen's LIVE JOURNAL . haha.

though i went up to the stage and said my words ro my parents , but there were some missing details due to time constrain .

DEAR MUMMY and DADDY ,

DADDY , firstly i am grateful , elated to see you here . i knew that is boring and tedious for you to sit there for 1 hour listening to the the trainer . i knew that you got to rush down from work . i didnt know until last night you told me that you are hungry but you waited for my turn to make my say . i THANK you for coming , for waiting patiently . seriously , i knew that this was my 2nd time my dad actually step into my school . the 1st time was my pri 6 graduation day and the 2nd time was yesterday. i knew that i've been asking for alot these years. is really a hard time having a child like me. the expenses on me is totally beyond your capabilities. yet without fail , you gave me the best . i hereby wish my daddy all the best for his buisness. i knew that this has been your dream . hwever , it was me the responsibility that you have to bear as a father , you didn't manage to succeed. i'm sorry. i also remeber last year , when i was so rude that i even said that i wanted to slap you . i'm sorry . this resulted a cold war between us for 3 months . i knew that i had say sorry so many time in my entire life , but i got to say i'm sorry again. being the only child , you gave me all ur love , pin all ur hopes on me and i actually did this to you .

i also want to thank you for providing me all the best you can and forgiving me . ESPECIALLY for cming last night . i knew that you felt awkward standing up last night , but i want the entire world to know, you are my dad , i am proud of you and I LOVE YOU .

Mummy- you are really the greatest mum on earth . no one can defeat you . you are so strong , you are the winner . although you had always been pessimistic and not doing well in life , but you are the BEST MUM , you performed ur role really well! other mum will have to go thru the pain of giving birth either thru natural birth or operation . is EITHER OR . but for my mum, just to give birth to me , she went thru BOTH of it . the doctor thought that she would do it naturally , however it faild and 3 days later she went thru the operation . other mums tolerated for only 10 months , but stubborn me was born 3days later . DURING the extra 3 days , my mum tried really hard to push me out.

Not only that , my mum has been the MOST PROTECTIVE MUM on earth . due to the fact of only child , she was very protective over me . i used to blame her for that . i'm sorry mummy . she did this all cos she love me . how can i do this to her ? if i am not going to appreciate and love her , then who will ? she gave up her meals , just for me to attend all the lessons i wanted , buying the things i want and giving me the BEST she could give. yet , i did not appreciate it . i always talk back to her , anger her in the ways i could . i am just like a hopeless kid .

i'm sorry , i thank you for doing all this for me . the unconditional love you gave me , is smth i cant repay all in my life . mummy , i am really proud of you . cos you are so noble . mummy I LOVE YOU .

seriously speaking , both my parents gave birth to me at a young age . they had to gave up their freedom at an early age . both of the aren't highly educated , hence to afford an expensive kid like me , they would need to work like a bull . yet , in my entire life (except last night ) have never told them how much i love them . i am really Glad that i went up on stage to let everyone know who's my parents , and i LOVE THEM .

to my friends- to people who did not know that i attended adam khoo's workshop . DUN worry , i am not commitng suicide . i am perfectly fine. i just wanted to tell you how much i thank you and love you . being the only child , i have no siblings to confine to , i only have friends . yet you pple did not fail to be there for me . i really appreciate it and thank you guys . despite me being irratating , crazy and moodswing . you guys still care for me . i really love you guys. you know who you are . okay . :D thanks pple. I LOVE YOU!

to syahirah- STAY STRONG , i am really touched . you are my heroine! i idolize ur courage . :D
thanks wan ting and kwai ga for helpiing me to achieve my chance of say up there . THANKS ALOT .

okay , if i got to thank everyone . the list will never end . THANKS EVERYONE . i LOVE ALL OF YOU!

Sunday, March 23, 2008 { 10:58 AM }

i find this interesting sia . a styrofoam box , at the bottom of it written , CONTAIN NON CFC. does that mean we can use CFC as and when we want ? is no longer polluting the air?
or it is just a propoganda , trying to attract ppl to buy it . LOL. okay i am just far too random to do this . wats the definition of waiting , waiting for a certain reason , or to wait for ur thoughts to be straighten out . waiting is alright , waiting to no avail hurts , futhermore , i dun see the glimpse of hope telling me that is the right choice to wait . wats the point of waiting , when i will not get the answer i want . and fyi, it had been 6 months .

Saturday, March 22, 2008 { 10:10 PM }

whoots . i am here to share this story okay . is DARN touching .

CREDITS to DOREEN :D:D:D

it is I BELIEVE by Low Kay Hwa

http://www.goodybooks.com/ibelieveyou1.htm ( chapter 1-17)
http://lovee-stories.blogspot.com/ (chapter 18-20)

once again , with credits to:

DOREEN THE TALLEST GENIUS

here are some quote i find it meaningful from the story .

"Happiness and sadness are not caused by your surroundings. They’re caused by your thinking."

"the longest wait is not created by the amount of time passed, but by your mind."

"Ours is not the saddest story in the world. There’re so many stories going on. Ours is just one of the many."
somehow or rather , i find some lines familiar in this story and o is the plot. it had always been so hard for you to bring across how you feel , and is either you love or don't love.

Monday, March 17, 2008 { 5:08 PM }

under the demon hands , but yesterday she was in a good mood so it wasnt that bad! LOL .

spastic MINHUI .

pei yen :D

minhui:D:D:D

kenny with his 45 degree of tilting his face .

zixin .

xiu hua and keewei

my score partner :D the one who has an exact opp birth dates and month of mine .

huiru chio right . hahax.

i really hate being kept hanging in the middle of no where . i dun hopes that will shatter in the end.

Sunday, March 16, 2008 { 2:43 PM }

"Over It"

How could you know
That behind my eyes a sad girl cried
And how could you know
That i hurt so much inside
And how could you know
That i'm not the average girl
I'm carrying the weight of the world
YEAH!
So can you get me outta here

[chorus]
Take me away
We'll jump in the car
Drive til the gas runs out and then walk so far
That we can't
See this place anymore
Take a day off
Give it a rest
So i can forget about this mess
If i lighten up a little bit,
Then i will be
Over It

I'm playin the role
Of the happy girl
But no one knows
Inside i'm alone
But i would never let it show
I get everyday
Too much work and not enough play
Over and over
It's always the same
YEAH!
But you can make everything OK...

[chorus]

Over it

[chorus]

Take Me Away
Take Me Away

[chorus]

Over It
I am Over It

CURRENTLY , i am urgentlygiving away 2 ticket for tonight concert . anyone interested sms me kay . :D
for more details : http://www.nafa.edu.sg/in_happenings/events/latest.htm

i really really wonder who are you refering to , i dun deny how much i wish wat i guess was right . despite knowing that is a naive thinking . i want to know , yet fear to know too . i would rather get hurt early then disappointed .

Saturday, March 15, 2008 { 7:09 PM }

okay . my dearest march holiday is going off very soon . be prepared for quite a long post . :P

completed ME (photo specialist) camp . completed student leader's camp . :D:D:D

pictures will be uploaded after i got it from the pple okay ?

DAY 1 KPVC CAMP

super tired to wake up early due to prize giving night on the previous night .
camp buddies - pris and wan ting ! sadly my hw buddies didn't come . GIN was sick , and yi jun was busy with church. the high-est part was NIGHT PHOTOGRAPHY ! yong xiang help us took ghostly pictures . i am still wating for my ghostly pictures ! hahahax .

DAY 2 KPVC CAMP

went to mandai orchid garden . in order to avoid the mosquitoes , ms zarina , me and donavan are the ONLY ONES who escaped and came to a shelter . a nice , cooling , cosy shelter . despite asking the rest upteen times if they want to leave that place , none followed . hence, we shall enjoy ourself ! only then i realised , i took ZERO PICTURES , and spent 2/3 of my time at the garden sleeping . :P back to school , pack up , break camp !

next camp , STUDENT LEADERS CAMP ! before i continue posting about the student leaders camp , i would like to dedicate this song to everyone who had particiapted the camp , despite the facilitators and campers , and whoever who care for me !

Always Know Where You Are by John Rzeznik

This place I never thought would feel like home.
And I ran forever;
Far away and I always thought I'd end up here alone.

Somehow the world has changed me.
I've come home,
To give back the things they took from you.
And I feel you now,
I'm not alone,
I'll always know where you are.

When I see myself, I'll always know where you are,
Where you are.

And I found something that was always there,
Sometimes it's got to hurt before you feel,
But now I'm strong and I won't kneel,
Except to thank who's watching over me.

But somehow I feel so stong.
And I've begun,
To be the one I never thought I'd be.
And I feel you now,
I'm not alone,
I'll always know where you are.

And when I see myself, I'll always know where you are,
Where you are.

Now, it's all so clear,
And I believe that everything's been opend up for me.
And I feel you now,
I'm not alone.
I'll always know, I'll always know where you are.

When I see myself, I'll always know where you are.
When I feel the sun, I'll always know where you are.
When I see myself, I'll always know where you are,
Where you are.

Firstly to GROUP 2 ! which is MINE AND PEIWEN's GROUP !
it consists of MARGARET , YIHAN , ALOYSIOUS, HAKEEM, NAOMI, PEI SHAN

people , i can see the first day you guys were like strangers , being shy towards everyone .
BUT I AM PROUD TO SAY , the first night dinner , you guys make me proud , you guys can really cook VERY WELL !
As time past by , you people start to bond together , although you guys are not the super noisy ones , but people like hakeem managed to speak up , you guys work together so well for captain's ball and night hunt which i am really really proud of you again!
GOOD JOB GUYS! and thanks alot for your soup yesterday night ! THANKS ALOT , pei wen and me are really touched !

PEIWEN - thanks for being such a fun and nice facilitator partner ! it was really great working with you , zi-highing ourselves :P hahahax .

to all facilitators (for the sake of the tallest genius is in pink )- despite the hicuups here and there , problems is part of life isn't it ? and you guys were really great too . had a MEMORABLE TIME with you people . i knew this is gonna be the last time we organise a camp together , lets keep this engraved in our memory okay ? :D i still love sitting/lying in the middle of the parade square , in that circle , looking up into the sky .

to ESPECIALLY HAIQEL . you are really great okay . i really got to thankyou for doing so MUCH for the camp . i believe it must had been a hard time for you . but always rmb , there's a big bunch of pple right behind you , ready to share ur burden okay . so dun stress urself too much . SMILE . i believe you are alright ! cos you are haiqel , you are strong enough !

this is our last camp tat we organised . rmb the first night , mr siah asked me this , ' how have ur life been in kranji sec?' i knew i've been thinking this question , askng myself this quesiton since last year , but i can't really answer myself well . but after this camp , after consecutive of 2 nights sitting in the middle of the parade square under the moon and stars , i've found my answer.

i dun deny tat at the start , kranji was not where i wanted to be . i was so sad got to leave my pri skol friends , came in to kranji without knowing anyone except doreen . stepping into a school with only knowing one person , is really hard to hang on . it was difficult to make new friends , you felt so isolated at first , but gradually , you made it . you get to know everyone .
in sec 1 , started off being a prefect . in sec 2 , started off being a ssc . at start when i just taken up this roles , i made many mistakes. upteen times of mistake . but it was these days that made up ur sec skol life . with every single mistake you made , you learn . if i never came to kranji , will i be who i am today ? will i get to know so many frens ? will i get to experience so much ? it was the people here , the teachers and students that had made my kranji journey a meaningful one.
i hereby thanks everyone for contributing into my life !

okay, why do i sound like i am graduating ? there is still months . but i am certain that when i first step into kranji , i didn't thought that i will have such a day. :D

anyway, tmr there will be concert organised by nafa , combine all the diff instruments soceities.
VENUE: NAFA
TIME : 7pm
ticketing price at 10 bucks.
profit is going to the children's cancer foundation . do your part ! :D
at that point of time when i was in fear, how i wish someone could had lighten up my pavement . this is when i know never take pple for granted, they might not always be there for you.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008 { 9:50 PM }

at the very start , when i was st ill a kid, wheneveri dun get what i want , i will complain and claim that this world is so unfair , why am i not born in with a silver spoon .

only when i start to grew older , i see the world clearer , i realise that i am very lucky . to have my a pair of loving parents and try their best to give me wat i want . and i believe that wat i have is the best .

only recently, i found myself so wrong . i dun even know what i do is right. why is my family evolving to such state . it looks good on the outside , but you never know whats happening in the inside . i tried my best . probably once again i went overboard , i was naive , childish . you thought this was a child play. but i really try my best . no matter wat you instruct , i tried to help . but i really have limited knowledge to such stuffs . how i wish , i would be more knowledgable to solve all this problem .

one is stubborn , naive to a certain extent , impulsive yet courageous trying his best , putting al his efforts
while another one is negative thinker , worried -sick , little knowedge too with impulse but careful and win for sure .

i mean this is wat i see . i have no idea . i really dun want to bother . just concentrating on what's my responsibility as a child .

i also realised ppl treat you cos of ur position ot who you really are . cos this life , this reality . pple are realistic . aall of a sudden i find myself being such a level 1 leader . pple respect you cos of ur position . isnt tat a great failure ?

Wednesday, March 05, 2008 { 6:02 PM }

SDMA results out .

ms zarina wan ting and i went . witnessed the entire ceremony .
disappointed ? at first we were . but currently my emotions is as calm as the sea . WHOA . sounds exaggerating yeah ? but is true . but is okay lar , we enjoyed through the business and everything .

MOST IMPTLY , ERIC YOU ARE FAMOUS !

basically take took sections of some video to form an advertisement for SDMA . and they actually took a part where ERIC push open the toilet's cubicle door . so if it got to be sdma's permanent advertisement . ERIC YOU ARE FAMOUS ! THANKS US ! :D

soo pple smile ! :D:D:D:D

i think by now i should know it isn't me. i was just deceiving myself all this while. but what hurts the most was cos i felt so cheated when those lines are repeated. simply so evil .

Tuesday, March 04, 2008 { 4:59 PM }

okay . i am just random to like post ?! hahax . :D

tmr , i will be going for the prize presentation for SDMA . super excited. cos i am really anxious to know the RESULTS. despite good or bad results is afterall HARDWORK!

friday will be like some prize giving night , get to wear on new blazers. Whoots . has been waiting for months indeed .

sat/sun will be KPVC CAmp . okay or should i say Media enterprise photo specialist ?? well , hope gonna be fun! i am sure i will have fun with the sec4s . :D

mon - ss IP, syco combine.
tues - chemSPA, ruan xian
wed- out with zhao =), syco sectional
thurs fri sat - ssc/prefect student leaders camp ! thats gonna be cool .
SUN - ruanxians performance at nafa.

so eventful . LOL . but i've been doing badly for my academic . time to buck up!

Sunday, March 02, 2008 { 8:28 PM }

anyway, there's also this SUPER SENSATIVE ISSUE GOING ON .
well , i am really innocent okay .
i know is SUPER ULTRA DANGEROUS to voice out my comment here , but i am very tempted to voice it out . caused i am NONE of the parties, and i have MANY OPINIONS!

well , i LOVE WORLD PEACE OKAY . i rather there will be many treaties in the history for me to study than treaties which will break into war . then i got to study abt the fights in the war ! thats tedious . AS A HISTORY STUDENT . i am PEACE LOVING . okay tat's rubbish . LOL .

in chinese, there's this saying that we cant clap with one hand.
so we will be able to clap with 2 hands?
let's think it this way , if one of the hand is big and the other is small , will the sound produced be as solid and loud ?
then answer is no right , we need 2 SIMILAR sizes of hands to clap .

can anyone infer from here ?! LOL . i am not providing inference and supprt here . but here goes the purpose

purpose statement : The purpose is to CONVINCE( purpose word) the WAR-RIORS(audience) to stop fight so that we WILL ATTAIN WORLD PEACE(impact) .

Though some may see this as a biased source due to the source ORIGIN. hence they will judge on the reliability . however , this is ONLY , PURELY my opinion. we can ignore the welfare of our opponent in war . but in WAR the ones who suffer the most are the CITIZENS and CIVILIANS and sometime UN , as they need to act as a form of meditator.

okay . the above was REALLY MY OPINION ONLY OKAY . dun create any uproar over it . cos is simply VERY SENSATIVE. i was just trying to put my history and ss knowledge in live . the above paragraph was just me revising my ss and history :P

{ 7:48 PM }

ROAD RUN YESTERDAY !

whoots. obviously it'd been years i've NOT run for road run . :D

when i was in sec1 , it rained.
when i was in sec2 , i ran .
when i was in sec3 , went for SSC duty.
when i was in sec4 , it rained, i ran around FOR FUN but NOT for LONG distance , and down for SSC duty . hahax.

alright . rmb those days when we were sec1s, we went to east coast park and it RAINed . limited shelters. all of us in ponchos , squeezing , waiting for the rain to stop . it was the FIRST TIME it rain for kranji sports event .

YESTERDAY , it rained again . then 2nd time kranji tried to hold a sports event OUTSIDE CCK area. is it fated that kranji can't hold sports event out of school ?!
or is it us ? when we first came in as sec1s it rained . when we are abt to leave as sec4s it rained too! muahahax . who knows?

to many pple , it was waste of time , waste of money etc . cos they came and did NOTHING . i dun deny that fact .
FOR ME , i woke up that early . 4.45 am ! but i still enjoy it , cos i was playing in the rain! hahax . ponchos are fun! rain without lightning risks are fun too ! oh yeah . i simply love the rain . peiwen and me derived the caused of the rain .
OUR DEAREST TALLEST GENIUS has been singing , and the sky was touched , hence it rain! so guys , know who to blame ?! LOL .

but afterall , raining has it good side of it too . so always look on the brighter side ! and i LOOOOOOVVVEE the ponchos , cause it flys in the rain! hahax.

Alright bye ! :D homeworking time . caused we are sec4s. -'-